Who, What & Where

It's my 33rd birthday. I'm grateful to have wonderful family, loved ones, friends and others who care for me. Life is perfect as it is?! Hmm, it would sound hypocritical if I say I am truly happy. It's not that I'm unhappy or something is missing in my life, rather I'm not living life to my fullest or living life as it is. I seem to be living how life should be.

There seems to be these questions of:

Who am I?

What am I here for?

Where am I heading?

I recall those childhood days where you are constantly asked, "What do you want to be when you grow up?"

There were times I wanted to become a pilot, a vet, an actress, an artist and a businesswoman . But, all these always gave way to the thought of being a teacher. I've always been the teacher when we played 'Pretend'.

I guess I wanted to teach because my teachers made a difference in my life and I wanted to do likewise. But now, it has come to a point where I think I can be more. This sounds narcissistic because it sounds like an over-inflated ego going on an hot-air balloon ride - up, up and up.

There is something stirring. It vibrates in the core that makes me shudder because what I know I am is so far from the reality of it all. It's going to take courage. I need my co-pilot on this flight.

It's going to be a long-haul, red-eye flight into the tempest storm.